Some Healing Words.

    Hey guys. So this blog might be long. In this blog I want to talk to those of you who are hurting inside. The ones who cry silently in their room at night because they don't want anyone to hear, the ones who are faking a smile and saying "I'm fine", and the ones who repeatedly tell themselves that they are worthless and that they are not good enough. This one is for the one's who feel broken inside and are hurt. I want to tell you people something and that something is "STOP!!". Stop telling yourself these things because you are good enough and you are loved more than you know. There is a God who fearfully and wonderfully made you for a reason. God loves you so much and he has an amazing plan for your life. Now I'm not just saying this because I am a Christian, I'm saying it because I've been there. I have felt that same pain and I have tried to keep the tears from falling many times. I have cried in my room by myself at night silently when I just wanted to scream, I have felt worthless and I have felt not good enough. Also lately I have been struggling a lot with myself and my emotions. I am also the type of person that questions if they can do anything right. The reason that I just decided to get real right there is because I wanted you to know that you aren't the only one that has felt or is feeling this way. The truth is that we are human and that yes we make mistakes and we have insecurities and we doubt ourselves way to much but those are not what define us. What defines us ladies and gentlemen is that we were made in the image of God. Now take a minute to take that in. You were made in the image of God and he brought you into this world for a reason and he thinks that you are so worthy and so beautiful and handsome and his unwavering love for you will never end. An important bible verse that comes to my mind is from Jeremiah 29:11 and it says "For I know the plans I have for you declares the lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." So yes you may be going through a struggle or may be hurting and feel like there's no hope but believe me there is and God will bring you through the bad and get you to something better. So stop beating yourself up and stop telling yourself lies because trust me even if I haven't met you I know that you are an amazing human being. Know that you do have value and are wanted and that God loves you no matter what. So after reading this I hope you will realize that yes its okay to cry sometimes but remember that you are so awesome and worthy and are loved more than you know. Okay its getting late lol goodnight!!:)

Finals Week!!!!

So if you are in college and reading this I hope you agree with me that Finals week is the most stressful week of your college career. I feel like my brain is going to explode. I have so much studying to do and am feeling very stressed. I cannot wait for summer to come so that I can relax and feel that warm Florida sun. I have 3 finals this week so wish me luck and prayers are appreciated. Hope that your week is going well and if you have finals also well hopefully we will survive them together. Have a good evening:)!

Falling in love...

     Okay so you saw the title above and are probably thinking okay let's see how cheesy this can get. But I'm not going for cheesy here, I'm going for real life no sugarcoating needed. For most of my life I was single, okay who am I kidding I was single for 19 years. Now being single for 19 years came with yes some loneliness but it also came with time for God to prepare my heart for the next guy to enter my life that was going to be more than just a friend. So after high school and entering into college I told myself that I was done with boys for a long time and that I was just going to focus on me. So for my freshman year of college I saw boys here and there that I thought were cute but I didn't act on it because remember I said I was done with boys:) So my freshman year was okay. Then flash forward into my sophomore year it was like my whole life took a 360. Into the start of my sophmore year I decided to try out this campus ministry for UCF called Wesley that I had heard about from my pastor. Now keep in mind I had in my head while I was attending this ministry and still am that I was done with boys. But women we all know God and we all know that he has an extraordinary plan for our lives that is different than our own plans. So after going to Wesley for a few weeks I had become friends with this guy named Thomas and I thought he was a little on the nerdy side but he had an amazing sense of humor. As I kept going to Wesley and kept hanging out with Thomas I had realized that I had developed a crush on him and I'm not talking little crush, I'm talking think about them 24/7 and feel your heart skip a beat when your with them that's the crush I'm talking about. So, now before I just rushed into everything and telling him how I felt I prayed. I prayed for days and weeks asking God what I should do and what was my purpose for Thomas, was it to just be his friend or was it to be something more? So after I prayed and prayed God told me to just be there for Thomas and that he would take care of the rest. After being friends for a few months I decided to tell him how I felt and trust God in the moment because I knew that he put Thomas in my life for a reason. So it was in December 2013 that I told him I liked him and he told me he liked me back. Now I'm really trying not to be cheesy here but it was basically the best day of my life!!! Now it's 4 months and 19 days later and it has been amazing. I thought I knew what falling in love felt like but I had no idea and now I do. Falling in love isn't just rainbows and unicorns and the best days of your life. Falling in love is having someone there by your side whether you are having the best day ever or your bawling your eyes out. Falling in love is doing stupid and weird things together. Falling in love is being open and honest and never giving up on each other no matter what. But most of all falling in love is letting someone see the deepest parts of you and knowing that no matter what they are not going anywhere.<3